...Greatest Grandma Ever...

I know most every person can say and will say that their grandma is the greatest grandma in the world.  I'm not arguing the fact that this is true, but I have the greatest grandma in the world too. The best apart about my grandma is/was that she was a parent and close friend to me on top of being a grandma! I am so grateful that I had the chance to be as close as I was to her. 

In the previous post I mentioned that she got sick at the end of February, and was later able to come home with hospice care and help from the family. Her condition continued to get worse, and the Hospice nurse told us she wouldn't make it through the weekend. Between Wednesday- Friday of last week every one of her grand kids, and a handful of her great grandchildren were able to come and say bye to the GREATEST lady. On Wednesday and Thursday she was alert, and remembered everything. I had about 4 or 5 good talks with her. I don't think I ever left her house in those last 4 days. If I did leave to go home to sleep I was back first thing in the morning. I cant begin to describe how grateful I am that I was able to care for her, and be there with her. My two sister in laws, my Uncle and Aunt, and of course my mom all made it possible for her to be in her own home. Everyone pitched in and helped so much. I wish I would have written down some of the things she told me when we visited those last couple days. It was mostly just talking about memories and how much I was going to miss her. While I was there with her I had a couple neat experiences. I wont blog about them, but I know my grandpa was there. I love this gospel so much, and am so grateful for the knowledge we have of eternal life. Thursday night I slept over at her house with my Aunt and brother ( Dustin). In honor of grandma we played Old Maid, had a coke, and ate some toast and cheese. The next morning she was pretty out of it. I told her I loved her, and she rolled over and very softly said I love you. That was the last thing I heard her say to me. That day she kind of went into a come like state. There were lots of cousins there that day, and despite her being sick it was really good to see everyone. I stayed until late Friday night, and was not wanting to leave that night, but my mom and her siblings needed some time with grandma. My mom promised she would call me if anything happened, and I could come right back over. I slept ( well tried to sleep) with my phone on my chest all night just in case my mom called. No call until the next morning at 7:30. My mom said her breathing was changing, and to come over before everyone woke up. I was able to go sit with her for two hours that morning. Hold her hand, cry, and tell her I loved her a few hundred more times. It was such a peaceful morning with her. I know that day that grandpa was there. We took turns going in to check on her that day. We usually left for a little bit during the day to get out and have a break. At about 2:15 me and my Aunt ran down to Maceys to get some more Coke. While we were in line paying my Uncle Merl called and said get home now. I threw some money at the cashier and we took off. I still dont know to this day how much I gave her. We made it from Maceys to my grandmas house in under a minute and a half ( usually a 5-10 minute drive.) We didn't stop at one stop sign, and passed every car on the left hand side. I don't know how we didn't get into a wreck. We walked in to the house at 2:56. She had passed away at 2:54. I thought I would be a total mess when she went, but she looked so peaceful and it just made me calm. She was out of pain, and with her family. I am so thankful that I was able to be there. We sat there with her for about an hour until the mortuary came and got her. It was hard that day, but each day since has gotten harder. Ill walk in her house and start crying. Ill see a picture and start crying. Ill be in Walmart and see a little old lady and bust into tears and have to leave the store. She was the most amazing grandma and I'm going to miss her so much! Rylee walked into her room the day she passed away, stuck her head in the door and as happy as she could be said, Mamma! When she couldn't see her she turned and said, " Where Mamma go?" It broke my heart. For two weeks we were there every day taking care of her, and Rylee would go in and talk to her. My mom explained to her that Mamma is in heaven and she is very happy. That night we were talking about Chaseys mom coming out, and Ry points to the ceiling and says, " Mamma in Heben and is bery happy." Melt my heart. I love her! Today my mom and aunt dressed her in her temple clothes, and I painted her fingernails. She looked beautiful, and peaceful. I know its just going to get harder, but its better then seeing her in pain. Im sure some of this doesnt make sense, but its my journal and Im  just trying to get everything out on paper.  The day she passed away was conference. During the second session there was a talk about death. It was her favorite speaker ( I cant remember his name), and he was talking about how we live to die and die to live. Grandma passed away during that talk. I'm sure Ill write more during the next week or so, so bare with me. I am sure going to miss her!